Dreams do come true

- So tell me when was first time when you thought of me in a sexual way?
Kira smiled intriguingly.
- I was not looking at you that way for a long time!
- I KNOW! When was that break?
- I had a dream about you...
-Oh yes! Dream! I remember! And you told me about it via Skype, didn't you?
- Ohhh yes I did...Kira was smiling dreamy...It was such a surprise as I was taking  you only as a friend and you was not free. But during that night I woke up feeling so turned on and satisfied in the same time...so I had to find out if we had THAT type of connection or it was only my brain playing up.
- You told me straight away, haven't you?
- I had to know immediately. Plus, you appeared to be very interested in my dream...so I had to tell you all the truth and all the details.
- You were very specific. And the fact you described everything so colourfully...I was reading your words and imagining how I am doing everything you were saying. And that's it! I could not look at you as a friend any longer. I was hooked!
-Remember how we went for a smoke and could not stop stare at each other and when people would come out to smoke we would be so disappointed as we had to chit chat and our mind was way far from it.
Kira made a deep breath and swept her hand across his forehead:
- This is so unreal baby...
-What?
- I mean...I would...Everyday was like a date! Remember? We would chat for hours and next night I would dream something new and we would discuss all of it and than throw in more info about each other and it would flow from topic to topic and with every word we would proof to each other that we are like twins...
- Soul mates in different bodies! That is how I called us! - Brian looked in Kira's eyes and smiled. - Do you remember our first kiss?
- Not sure...we had so many...
-Liar!
- I am! I know! But I want you to tell me...she smiled and licked her lips
Brian look reminded her of their first kiss:
...He had to go home as always. She did not want to let him go. They were smoking third cigarette and standing near the window in the hallway. They were standing very close to each other. She would make a drag while looking in his eyes it would make her eye water but not blink. Brian would stand there. Wanting her more than anything but not willing to break the rules first. Both of them felt how strong their connection is and  were scared and curious at the same time.
Kira finished her smoke and went in closer. Their breath mixed. Brian looked at her breasts and touched her fingers.
She said:"I want to kiss you".
- We can't...
- But I want...
She stood on her toes for a second just to kiss his lover lip. That was the trigger. He grabbed her tight and kissed with such passion she could feel her heart pounding in her ears. They could not stop. If not one of the passerby’s it would last and last.
That was the moment. And in a second they would go separate ways in separate homes to live separate lives. For now.

Never Ever

Don’t you ever ever judge a woman, dude!

You have no idea why she looks so “good”

You don’t have the reason tell her all the truth

She’s already know maybe more than should

Don’t forget that maybe just this sec or two

She broke off her pattern, maybe you should too

Why keep being judgee to the one who just,

Trying make a living only way they could?

Does not make them perfect or at list alright

But it’s their movement – let them do don’t judge  

Tell your mates or either: “Damn. It’s sad…”

Don’t go rounds shout: “I don’t understand!”

Let’s be honest here you don’t even should!

Just shut up and vision all the girls you knew

And let’s hope that any, baby girl alive

Would have never ever need to cook that stew…

Phoenix

For you my innocent addiction

I will cut down all the bad

Will stop destroying my convictions

And all the fetters will undo

Why do we always set on something?

Why can’t we move just for because?

Why if untouched our souls will slumber

And we will drift until we die?

Let all our stops be new beginnings

For good or bad we shall all move

I would consider moving forward

Cause if I’m not I’m rather dead

My soul been stiff and I’ve got frozen

But mind is hot and I’ll revive

Just watch me rise like old good Phoenix

To grab on reason to survive!

How to get rid of you?

So tell me: "How  to get rid of you?"
When every thought is going back to you!
It brings me straight to that raw night
When I find out all alright
When all was said without fight with deepest meaning on the mind
Why did we do it? And what for?
When all we knew it was too sore...
We should not try to see how good we could have been
or may be should?
For Goodness sake, just let me go!
Just let me do my own stroll
For good or bad...just let me know

If in few you'll take me back

And tell me still how much you care
Or should I just forget those eyes that made me shiver then all night

I dither now and in pain
My heart goes out of restraint the one I set five years back
To stay alive, to be on top and that is where is my slope
Don't let it go it's not a time our hearts deserve another prime.

What took you SO long!

Kira returned to her seat. She was smiling with guilty smile. Brian was on edge.

- “What the Fuck! What took you SO LONG!

- “Schh babe, calm down” – she kissed his angry lips – “Sit down and I’ll explain!”

Brian sit there looking very pissed off while twitching his leg. She put her palm on his knee and whispered in his ear:

-          “I had to sit on a toilet sit for half an hour, darling. I am sorry this is the effect of Gear on me… That is why I left you some in your pocket so you can freely go and do it yourself when you bored or feel the need.” She kissed his neck and felt his tension leaving his body.

-          “I totally forgot about that present! Damn! I’m sorry sweet but I’ve been going crazy here! Waiting for you and couldn’t drink or do anything! I felt trapped!”

-          “I know that feeling! Believe you me! Look, let’s make a deal – if you or me are high and need something - we go and do it, but leaving a trace to know where each of us is.

-          “Meaning…?”

-          “Well on the plane not so many places to go so no need to leave a note for example … but one could if wanted… or even simple txt…

Brian set there listening to Kira. She raised her glass offering to start drinking. He poured Champagne in their glasses

-          “To you Mr. Carter Jones!”

-          “To you Mrs. Carter Jones!”

She laughed and through her head back and his brain pictured how she would do the same when they make love.

-“Hey B, would you like to make a trip to the loo? Before we start our long and sexy chat?”

They looked on a screen and both WC cabins were vacant.

-“Do NOT take long this time!”

- “It’s not my fault babe, I think it’s deli I ate at the airport”- Kira said loud enough with cringe on her face as stewardess was passing them.

- “Do you need any medicine ma’am?

- “Oh, no thank you! Champagne does the trick! I’ll be fine!”

- “OK if there is anything you need...”

- “Sure, thanks!” – Kira smiled back

- “Common sweet, see you in 5”

Kira kissed Brian in the cheek. He smacked her playfully and laughed.

-          “Will we ever talk about us?”

-          “Yes, darling we have loads of time! And trust me soon you’ll be v-e-r-y chatty”

They left each other just to be back in a few…They left each other just to be back in a few…

AUTHOR IN DEPRESSION

On a terrible phase of not wanting to do anything... even to live...

Down the memory lane...

VI

They board the airport shuttle to be transported to the plain. Kira could feel blood racing through her body, rushing to the face and making smile to cocaine haze.  Brain looked hipper active and also was smiling. He was entering the phase of non stop chatting. Kira wanted to get on board and get alcohol and toilet to keep up. Even though she needn’t to get higher she couldn’t stop. Not just yet. Kira always was the “till you drop” girl. Dance, drink, party… Until her body would function she would drink and do anything. Than switch would close the ability to destroy and she would be unconscious for a while. Next moment when her eyes open up – back to work. Kira knew her problem, Sam knew her problem but Brian didn’t. Kira looked at him Brian was too high to understand much. Suddenly their bus started to move and she felt pound weight on her chest. It was guilt. She pushed that feeling deep inside and smiled:

-        “You are the one who started it. You can not give up now!”

-        “Kiss me, gently…” –she whispered in Brian’s ear

-        “Right now?” – he looked surprised.

-        “Yes! Now…No one here knows us! We are in our beds at home right now making coffee. For the rest of the world we are Melisa and Carter. And we are going on our honeymoon. So, yes! Kiss me gently right now, baby!

-        “Yes ma’am” – he smiled and leaned towards kissing her gently but strong at the same time.

Her brain stopped analyzing she felt safe and horny.

-        “Excitement! This is the only thing you should feel, silly!”

-        “Are you happy now? Look what you did!” – Brian stopped to whisper

Kira looked down at his pants and saw his excitement bulging out of his pants. She smiled.

-        “Good! Now I know I am not the only one here!”

-        “Bitch!” – he smacked her bottom.

They arrived to the plain. Business class. Comfy seats. Loads of liquor. And some action.

By the time the captain put sign “Fasten your seatbelts” they were thinking how to snick to the rest room and have sex there.

Instead Kira suggested cooling off and having a chat. Brain agreed. They sat looking at each other and not knowing where to start.

-        “Let me start by saying that never in a million years I would imagine this happening.”

-        “What do you mean?”

-        “I mean common, we did discuss this 1000 times that we are attracted to each other and we want each other but nothing than small kissing and virtual flirt can ever happen between us. And now look at us we are going to our honeymoon.” –Brian made small air quotes on the last word.

Kira looked away. She saw stewardess passing with bottle of Champagne.

-        “Excuse me, Miss!”

-        “Yes!”

-        “Would you be so kind to bring us one as well?”

-        “Yes sure, as soon as we are up in the air. It shouldn’t take long Mrs. Jones.

-        “Thank you!”

-        “You are right!” – Kira turned her face to Brain and looked deep into his eyes. –“That is why there is a saying “Never say never”!”

-        “Do you remember how it all started?”

-        “Not really… I think you were attracted to other girl in our school…What was her name…” Kira grabbed Brain’s neck-“Oh yeah, it was Didra!”-she squeezed his neck

Brian laughed, grabbed her face and pulled closer to kiss. She pulled away

-        “Don’t try to close my mouth! So what she had that attracted your attention more than me?!?”

-        “Well, first of all, weren’t you hanging out with Bob at that time? And don’t you try to say “No”.”

-        “Well we were just going for coffee and cigarettes!”

-        “That is all? Are you sure?”

-        “Just a few kisses… Oh relax! It was way before you even decided to look at me!”

-        “That’s not true!”

-        “Oh really???”

-        “Really!” 

-        “So tell me than…” – Kira moved closer.

 Her closeness was killing him with desire. But they had long day ahead and loads of time to kill.

-        “OK! Yes I did hang out with Didra! And yes, we had a little thing going on. But you know my story and she couldn’t cross that line…”

-        “And than I came along, right?!?”

-        “You did not come along! You wouldn’t even look at me! Yes, you were friendly and all, but I thought you were taken. I remember one day, I saw tattoo on your back – I can tell you that day I wanted to grab you tight and get you into a dark corner somewhere!”

-        “You know I also have tattoo in the other place…” - Kira was playing with his fingers and smiling with her eyes. –“And how come I never knew that you liked me?!”

-        “Well I am married, you are the sex bomb of the group…You do the math!” – “And who to say how it would turn out if I approached you first? You could’ve said no to me…”

-        “Yeah…I think it was a after a massive New Year party when I realized my attraction to you. Was it?”

-        “I don’t know! I know that at that party you were steaming hot and guys were getting drunk just to get your attention and not be afraid to be shut down by you!”

-        “I am not that bad, am I?”

-        “Well sweet, you are nice when you are interested…If not there can be dead bodies!”

- “Champagne for the newlyweds!” – Stewardess has appeared with bottle on ice.

- “Excellent! Is bathrooms are already open?” – Kira asked with hope.

- “This is where you can check if it is vacant or occupied” – Stewardess pointed on the screen -“and yes it is vacant now!”

- “Thank you, very much! Honey, would you manage the drink while I’m gone?

- “Sure!”

- “Thanks” – Kira got up and went to the bathroom. So far she loved her flight. And that journey down the memory lane is something special. Time to remember all!