Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Never Ever



Don’t you ever ever judge a woman, dude!
You have no idea why she looks so “good”
You don’t have the reason tell her all the truth
She’s already know maybe more than should

Don’t forget that maybe just this sec or two
She broke off her pattern, maybe you should too
Why keep being judgee to the one who just,
Trying make a living only way they could?
Does not make them perfect or at list alright
But it’s their movement – let them do don’t judge  

Tell your mates or either: “Damn. It’s sad…”
Don’t go rounds shout: “I don’t understand!”
Let’s be honest here you don’t even should!
Just shut up and vision all the girls you knew
And let’s hope that any, baby girl alive
Would have never ever need to cook that stew…

Phoenix



For you my innocent addiction
I will cut down all the bad
Will stop destroying my convictions
And all the fetters will undo

Why do we always set on something?
Why can’t we move just for because?
Why if untouched our souls will slumber
And we will drift until we die?

Let all our stops be new beginnings
For good or bad we shall all move
I would consider moving forward
Cause if I’m not I’m rather dead

My soul been stiff and I’ve got frozen
But mind is hot and I’ll revive
Just watch me rise like old good Phoenix
To grab on reason to survive!

Monday, March 17, 2014

How to get rid of you?


So tell me: "How  to get rid of you?"
When every thought is going back to you!
It brings me straight to that raw night
When I find out all alright
When all was said without fight with deepest meaning on the mind
Why did we do it? And what for?
When all we knew it was too sore...
We should not try to see how good we could have been
or may be should?
For Goodness sake, just let me go!
Just let me do my own stroll
For good or bad...just let me know
If in few you'll take me back
And tell me still how much you care
Or should I just forget those eyes that made me shiver then all night
I dither now and in pain
My heart goes out of restraint the one I set five years back
To stay alive, to be on top and that is where is my slope
Don't let it go it's not a time our hearts deserve another prime.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

What took you SO long!

Kira returned to her seat. She was smiling with guilty smile. Brian was on edge.
- “What the Fuck! What took you SO LONG!
- “Schh babe, calm down” – she kissed his angry lips – “Sit down and I’ll explain!”
Brian sit there looking very pissed off while twitching his leg. She put her palm on his knee and whispered in his ear:
-          “I had to sit on a toilet sit for half an hour, darling. I am sorry this is the effect of Gear on me… That is why I left you some in your pocket so you can freely go and do it yourself when you bored or feel the need.” She kissed his neck and felt his tension leaving his body.
-          “I totally forgot about that present! Damn! I’m sorry sweet but I’ve been going crazy here! Waiting for you and couldn’t drink or do anything! I felt trapped!”
-          “I know that feeling! Believe you me! Look, let’s make a deal – if you or me are high and need something - we go and do it, but leaving a trace to know where each of us is.
-          “Meaning…?”
-          “Well on the plane not so many places to go so no need to leave a note for example … but one could if wanted… or even simple txt…
Brian set there listening to Kira. She raised her glass offering to start drinking. He poured Champagne in their glasses
-          “To you Mr. Carter Jones!”
-          “To you Mrs. Carter Jones!”
She laughed and through her head back and his brain pictured how she would do the same when they make love.
-“Hey B, would you like to make a trip to the loo? Before we start our long and sexy chat?”
They looked on a screen and both WC cabins were vacant.
-“Do NOT take long this time!”
- “It’s not my fault babe, I think it’s deli I ate at the airport”- Kira said loud enough with cringe on her face as stewardess was passing them.
- “Do you need any medicine ma’am?
- “Oh, no thank you! Champagne does the trick! I’ll be fine!”
- “OK if there is anything you need...”
- “Sure, thanks!” – Kira smiled back
- “Common sweet, see you in 5”
Kira kissed Brian in the cheek. He smacked her playfully and laughed.
-          “Will we ever talk about us?”
-          “Yes, darling we have loads of time! And trust me soon you’ll be v-e-r-y chatty”
They left each other just to be back in a few…They left each other just to be back in a few…

Thursday, March 14, 2013

AUTHOR IN DEPRESSION

On a terrible phase of not wanting to do anything... even to live...


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Down the memory lane...


VI

They board the airport shuttle to be transported to the plain. Kira could feel blood racing through her body, rushing to the face and making smile to cocaine haze.  Brain looked hipper active and also was smiling. He was entering the phase of non stop chatting. Kira wanted to get on board and get alcohol and toilet to keep up. Even though she needn’t to get higher she couldn’t stop. Not just yet. Kira always was the “till you drop” girl. Dance, drink, party… Until her body would function she would drink and do anything. Than switch would close the ability to destroy and she would be unconscious for a while. Next moment when her eyes open up – back to work. Kira knew her problem, Sam knew her problem but Brian didn’t. Kira looked at him Brian was too high to understand much. Suddenly their bus started to move and she felt pound weight on her chest. It was guilt. She pushed that feeling deep inside and smiled:
-        “You are the one who started it. You can not give up now!”
-        “Kiss me, gently…” –she whispered in Brian’s ear
-        “Right now?” – he looked surprised.
-        “Yes! Now…No one here knows us! We are in our beds at home right now making coffee. For the rest of the world we are Melisa and Carter. And we are going on our honeymoon. So, yes! Kiss me gently right now, baby!
-        “Yes ma’am” – he smiled and leaned towards kissing her gently but strong at the same time.
Her brain stopped analyzing she felt safe and horny.
-        “Excitement! This is the only thing you should feel, silly!”
-        “Are you happy now? Look what you did!” – Brian stopped to whisper
Kira looked down at his pants and saw his excitement bulging out of his pants. She smiled.
-        “Good! Now I know I am not the only one here!”
-        “Bitch!” – he smacked her bottom.
They arrived to the plain. Business class. Comfy seats. Loads of liquor. And some action.
By the time the captain put sign “Fasten your seatbelts” they were thinking how to snick to the rest room and have sex there.
Instead Kira suggested cooling off and having a chat. Brain agreed. They sat looking at each other and not knowing where to start.
-        “Let me start by saying that never in a million years I would imagine this happening.”
-        “What do you mean?”
-        “I mean common, we did discuss this 1000 times that we are attracted to each other and we want each other but nothing than small kissing and virtual flirt can ever happen between us. And now look at us we are going to our honeymoon.” –Brian made small air quotes on the last word.
Kira looked away. She saw stewardess passing with bottle of Champagne.
-        “Excuse me, Miss!”
-        “Yes!”
-        “Would you be so kind to bring us one as well?”
-        “Yes sure, as soon as we are up in the air. It shouldn’t take long Mrs. Jones.
-        “Thank you!”
-        “You are right!” – Kira turned her face to Brain and looked deep into his eyes. –“That is why there is a saying “Never say never”!”
-        “Do you remember how it all started?”
-        “Not really… I think you were attracted to other girl in our school…What was her name…” Kira grabbed Brain’s neck-“Oh yeah, it was Didra!”-she squeezed his neck
Brian laughed, grabbed her face and pulled closer to kiss. She pulled away
-        “Don’t try to close my mouth! So what she had that attracted your attention more than me?!?”
-        “Well, first of all, weren’t you hanging out with Bob at that time? And don’t you try to say “No”.”
-        “Well we were just going for coffee and cigarettes!”
-        “That is all? Are you sure?”
-        “Just a few kisses… Oh relax! It was way before you even decided to look at me!”
-        “That’s not true!”
-        “Oh really???”
-        “Really!” 
-        “So tell me than…” – Kira moved closer.
 Her closeness was killing him with desire. But they had long day ahead and loads of time to kill.
-        “OK! Yes I did hang out with Didra! And yes, we had a little thing going on. But you know my story and she couldn’t cross that line…”
-        “And than I came along, right?!?”
-        “You did not come along! You wouldn’t even look at me! Yes, you were friendly and all, but I thought you were taken. I remember one day, I saw tattoo on your back – I can tell you that day I wanted to grab you tight and get you into a dark corner somewhere!”
-        “You know I also have tattoo in the other place…” - Kira was playing with his fingers and smiling with her eyes. –“And how come I never knew that you liked me?!”
-        “Well I am married, you are the sex bomb of the group…You do the math!” – “And who to say how it would turn out if I approached you first? You could’ve said no to me…”
-        “Yeah…I think it was a after a massive New Year party when I realized my attraction to you. Was it?”
-        “I don’t know! I know that at that party you were steaming hot and guys were getting drunk just to get your attention and not be afraid to be shut down by you!”
-        “I am not that bad, am I?”
-        “Well sweet, you are nice when you are interested…If not there can be dead bodies!”
- “Champagne for the newlyweds!” – Stewardess has appeared with bottle on ice.
- “Excellent! Is bathrooms are already open?” – Kira asked with hope.
- “This is where you can check if it is vacant or occupied” – Stewardess pointed on the screen -“and yes it is vacant now!”
- “Thank you, very much! Honey, would you manage the drink while I’m gone?
- “Sure!”
- “Thanks” – Kira got up and went to the bathroom. So far she loved her flight. And that journey down the memory lane is something special. Time to remember all! 

Friday, February 10, 2012

Snow for show


V



Brian came out of the toilet door and smiled. Kira was right, he felt much better and sober now. His heart was pumping blood and it felt like adrenalin.
“Today is the beginning of the crazy month…You knew that when agreed to this, so enjoy!” – he thought to himself while searching for Kira.
She set on the metallic bench in the smoking area with champagne glass in hand and cigarette in the other. Her eyes were closed when she made a drag than she brought the glass to the lips and made a sip, swallowed and than exhaled. 
Brian smiled and checked the time –they had 20 min before boarding.
Kira watched him all the time through her lashes. He walked up to her much more confident. She looked up and smiled.
-        “We have 20 min before boarding, sweet”.
-        “I know! I want to finish drinks and run quickly to the toilet. All the liquid is looking for way out now!”
-        “I know exactly what you mean, sweet!”
-        “So let’s get back to the bar and finish Champagne
-        “Could you be a doll and bring to us? I do not feel like getting up and leaving the place where I can smoke before long flight…Please…
Brian smiled at her and got up. He returned in 2 seconds with bottle and pore some in their glasses. Few foreign men did point at them. Kira could hear them whispering some sort of “How inappropriate this is…” phrases in each others ears.
She tried to hold back but she was high and could not stand this bullshit, especially not on her “honeymoon”.

She lit up her cigarette and grabbed her glass made a massive sip and smile with her devilish smile. Brian knew immediately that she is up to something. But he had no idea what was that.
Second sip and her glass is empty
-“I need a refill babe”
-“Easy tiger…”
-“You know I’m fine sweet” she kissed his cheek – “Do not worry”
Kira turned around while Brain was managing her drink and looked directly at those foreigners. They were in theirs mid 40’s, had grey hair, red noses and very snobby look about them self.
-        “So you are British!” – “Haven’t you mother teach you not to talk behind some ones back?”
-        “…”
There was dead silence because Kira said it with perfect British accent and with tone that gives no other options but to obey.
-        “I am on my honeymoon… We are, actually! And we are aloud to be a little out of order. You on the other hand – are on the business trip and yet you are drinking at 6 a. m. So who is out of order here?”
-        “Are you going to answer her” – Brian joined the discussion
One guy cleared his throat.
-        “I am very sorry miss, we are sorry, for misjudging and talking behind your back. Congratulations on the marriage. Have a lovely honeymoon!”
-        “Yes, very sorry” – second guy awoke from the slumber.
-        “Apologies accepted, thank you” – Kira turned around and smiled.
-        “To the world peace”
-        “You are crazy!” – Brian kissed her head and drank his champagne.
They heard flight info has been called out loud. Gate 3 was ready to welcome them. They checked bottle it was almost empty.
 -“Do you have anything left in the pocket?”
-“Nope I did it all”
-“OK so I’ll go first to the ladies. You’ll go after me. Leave me some of the drink”
- “OK”
Kira went to the ladies and did all the procedure very quickly. She managed to put slightly more for Brian to keep him through out the flight. They had 6 hours ahead to get to the island.
She returned to the smoking lot and put package in his pocket and whispered the warning of using it all.
Brian left for WC and Kira lit up yet another cigarette. She was making up for all the years. Last glass of champagne in her hand felt cool and wet. She was very thirsty.
-        “Damn! We left bottles of Champagne inside the suitcase!”
Brian showed up looking bubbly and happy.
-        Common we need to hurry!”
-        “Coming!”
Kira put out her cigarette and drained her glass. Her future was calling. Should she answer?